I-I-It's My Birthday, You Missed It

ITTTTTS MYYYYY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY! (soon.) Normally I get so so excited about my birthday and warn people all the time beforehand..and tell everybody the day of..and extend the celebrations of my day as long as possible. This year is just a little different. None of my friends are home for my birthday and unilke the past two years, there are no concerts on my birthday either. No friends, nothing to do.. plans are pretty much nonexistent. I don't even know what I want for my birthday. I'm also turning 20. Goodbye teenage years! SO OLD. I don't know how I feel about it.. I'm too young to start dreading birthdays, I know, but the teens were good to me. I'm lightweight unsure of my future and what I want from it. The 20's hold no such structure as the teens did. I can't foresee anything in my future but blurry outlines and hopeful expectations.

It's also my mama's birthday tomorrow. I just bought her a cleaning product online that I just saw on TV.. Kinda silly but I know she will like it. (I also am giving her martini glasses so it's not such a bad gift)